It has been a while since my last post, a lot has happened in my life - moving out, leaving my first job, and transferring to a smaller Church, to name the least.
Lately, I find myself pouring out my heart to the Lord more frequently - as there will be some changes with the SHS (Senior High School) Curriculum here in the country where I teach.
I know that the Lord is fully in control even in our daily lives, however, I was tempted to focus on the circumstances that I was in (which I was not proud of). I was kind of worried about the next step that I would need to take if I were laid off. Will I continue to teach at a different level, in a different school, or could be in a different country? Will I start a new career again? Will I do full-time ministry? Or will I get married? The list goes on and on, but, the Lord reminded me through His Word that He is calling me to trust Him, in who He is (based on His Word and even based on my life testimony).
The Lord Jesus Christ is not just Our Creator (in whom all things are created...), He is the Alpha and the Omega (the Beginning and the End), Omnipresent, Omniscient, and Omnipotent God. With the definite mind that I have, I can't fully grasp all His attributes, and it left me in awe, worship, and humility (repenting for not trusting Him in what He allows and what He will allow in my lifetime for His glory).
God reminded me that He created the universe and us, out of nothing, that He is in control even with the wind or the storms, and of course - that He can raise someone from the dead (like what He did with Lazarus and of course when He (Jesus Christ) resurrected after 3 days of dying on the cross for our sins). Not just that, He demonstrated His power in so many ways in the Bible - and even in changing the hearts of men in the past and even today according to His will and purpose for them to believe in what He did on the cross for salvation.
The Lord did not condemn me, He even comforted me and allowed me to cry. But, He being a just God also rebuked me and reminded me of the things He did in my life as He allowed me to live by faith. Almost four years ago, when the Lord guided me to legalize our internet provider at home. It is a long story, it was a hustle for me and everyone at home - but I know that the Lord is calling me to do it (to correct it), so I obeyed because I love Him.
At first, there seemed to be no light - as I didn't hear anything back from the Provider as I tried to reach out (it is like I was talking with a bot). But the Lord guided me to keep going - until finally after I continued praying and seeking the Lord, I received an email response and they went to our home to investigate. It was a series of meet-ups with them to plan how to arrest the agent who made us have an illegal connection to the internet. After a few weeks, we found out his true identity, and our connection was fixed, praise God!
I obeyed because I love the Lord, I did not do it to earn a reward from Him (but the Lord is indeed faithful in His Word - He is a God who rewards His children). The Lord provided for me immediately after I obeyed, praise the Lord! Four years have passed, and I am still using the Bibles that I purchased from those provisions - the CSV She Reads Truth Bible and the ESV Study Bible. The Lord has blessed me immensely, throughout the years.
The Lord reminded me that He is calling me to be faithful, knowing who He is, with the unknown future ahead of me. He reminded me that His will is for my sanctification, and for His glory - regardless of where He will allow me to be in the next few months of this year. And lastly, He reminded me of His love - and how He is calling me to continue to love Him, live by faith in Him, and live in obedience to Him daily.
May the Lord guide me to rest in His love alone, and live it out wherever He pleases to use me.
Soli Deo Gloria!
